Happy Plane-aversary!

Ok, so we wont be on a plane today, but it is our anniversary! That's just a great episode of Friends. Today is our four year anniversary. So how about some reflection?

The other day Christopher and I were looking at a picture we have by our bed of us just after we got married. And it occured to us that we look old now. Well, older. That was a sad revelation as nobody really wants to get old, right? Four years sure has gone by fast. It actually makes me sad to think about how fast time flies. I feel like one day very soon we'll be old cripples with saggy skin and more memories than dreams. I want so badly to slow life down so I can stop and enjoy every moment, and every smile. Even every tear we share.

I began thinking about the last four years and everything we've gone through, and to be honest, they've been rough. And yet, even through all of our miscarriages and disapointment, the death of my dad, and things like that, our marriage has remained strong.

There hasn't been a day gone by that I wished for someone different. Even in the midst of trials, our relationship wasn't strained. Each trial reminded me of how incredibly lucky I am to have him to lean on. I don't know how I would have handled the heart ache I've experienced in the last few years without him by my side, encouraging me.

More strongly coloring our life together has been the happiness. And I'm not talking about the kind of quiet, peaceful happiness you see at the end of a movie. No, I'm talking about the pure joy and excitement of being together. All the laughing until we cry, our little inside jokes that nobody will ever understand, the things we get to experience with eachother that nobody else can be a part of. It's such a beautiful picture when you put all the little moments together.

I love how in love we still are. And I love how in love we continue to fall. It's so opposite most couples. Every day I still get excited when I wake up next to him. I lay in bed at night dreading sleep because I actually feel like I miss out on him by sleeping. When he comes home from work I hug him like I haven't hugged him in weeks because I can't help it. We still sleep cuddled closely together. Every single kiss is passion rather than mechanical habbit.

We have a love that astounds me. And I am so thankful to the Lord for that. I know it's nothing of my effort. If it were left up to my doing, I'm sure Christopher would be a step closer to becoming "That Guy" (another Friends quote).

The bottom line is that no matter what the future holds, I know that God has blessed me so much already with such an amazing husband. He has a way of making me feel so beautiful and special. Even if our dreams don't come true, even if we never share the joy of having children, our picture will still be painted beautiful with everything we have right now. It's love. And it's amazing.